Hello

hi

(click loog for refs)
whatafack?! blurple poodle?! yes...shes my sona...and theyre an asshole who will eat your slippers.

tw for lore: self killing

This is old art of loogie when she was just a sheep!

hey im lottie and im an 19 yo nonbinary furry. im pansexual!
(any pronouns)

puro!!!

I make music sometimes. feel free to ask me to make you some for a video game or something because i'd be happy to see what i can do.

i draw sometimes too. too lazy to add my art here so ill do it some other time lol

i also know a little about sfm (source film maker, 3d animating software.) but i haven't gotten good enough at it to use it too much. and lack of motivation and self doubt makes me not wanna open it to work on anything big-ish.

oddly enough, i find myself changing in ways that never feel 'right'. i have no clue who i am, i just want to be comfortable in my own flesh without others unspoken disapproval. i feel naked! i have to keep what i get, i cant choose who i'm with forever. they come and go, then i suddenly don't feel like who i was before, not even remotely. ive never felt so numb in my life. i have endless unanswered questions and most of them are locked behind something, i can't say what it is. i have no clue!

loogie canonically committed suicide. but before the attempt, they have been reading a book about various satanic topics, like rituals and whatnot. her curiosity was driven by her heavily anti religious mindset, coming from her poor experience with christians throughout her whole life. she thought to herself while holding the book; "what fairytales are the fairytale believers afraid of here?" they then read through the whole book, then tried one of the "rituals" following each step carefully, nothing happened. she sat down for a while on the floor in the dark room, staring at her bleeding hands. the candles fell over, and the wind stopped. the sheep then got up and walked out the abandoned household, with the book in her hand, she grabbed a pen and wrote something on a blank page at the end of the book. "a farewell message." she through it off the cliff, staring at the pages rip off from the sharp thorns and trees it touched. loog then felt this pressure in her chest, it was very unpleasant. but they knew what they came here for, so the sheep stepped off. eyes open, staring at that river. flowing gracefully as she was ripped in pieces, just like the book. she was then motionless, but why didn't it feel any different? the sheeps life would fade way, but it didn't feel 'new' it felt like this has happened before. it didn't feel right but it made all the sense she needed in this life. but the creature felt a burning sensation all over its body, they couldnt say anything. everything was broken, no noise could be made, just constant burning. the animal then finally passed on. or so it thought it did, it woke up! but its body was still broken, its eyes were gone, only some of its skin remained. most of its dark purplish blue furcoat remained except for its face and stomach. it stood up and wandered around the woods that evening, hungry. its stomach was gone. suddenly, she could see again! and there it was, right in front of her. it was the flesh, reanimated by force! all red, all so very red! pink..and..you get what i mean. its a horrifying sight of loogs own fucked up corpse standing in front of her. her sight blacked out once again, and after a while, she woke up again. feeling, well..who knows what shes feeling anymore. they stood up covered in blood, and walked towards the river. they looked at their reflection and saw a poodle..her eyes were now yellow and red, and the skinless parts of her are replaced with a lighter tone of her original fur color (face and stomach)..she looked completely unharmed. "wh-what is happening?" she finally raised concerns..very frightened. she then saw the book floating across the river making its way towards her, she then grabbed it and opened it up. then she heard a voice coming from it as it glows red; "hello! you have summoned the immortality deity such as myself...tchort! i have no idea what you were before you killed yourself so i made you a poodle! uh don't die again because i can only do this once! goodbye for now...and keep the book with you, i can't talk to you without it! oh oh! one more thing! your replacement eyes..i connected them to your soul too soon on accident, sorry you had to see that. ciao!" the red glow then fades away as the book has nothing but random symbols on it now. loog then laughed hysterically, proud of what she has done to herself! then she grabbed the book and left the woods to do..well, live her life i guess.